My Skin Suit

I’m writing this post in my birthday suit giphy

My Skin suit, my mortal disguise.The bag of bones I live to decorate, and shake to The Cramps in!

I’ve never been very outspoken on the issue of Body Positivity, probably because it took me so long to really love myself fully, and there are too many cute clothes in the world to be naked. But it is a very important topic, an to so many young girls in living in a photoshop world. So I wish to relate and hopefully inspire. And I say young because as you get older it gets easier. You know yourself better, your taste gets better, and you get lots of practice dealing with the curve balls life throws at you. I can not stress enough that life is short, this body we are in is temporary, and as soon as you start loving it, others will to! Accept your flaws and laugh so hard at them nobody else can, then we have no issue. Nobody, but yourself can make you feel less, and you can’t change who you are, so be FREE. In the words of Zoolander “I’m pretty sure there’s a lot more to life than being really, really good looking. And I plan on finding out what that is.zoolander

First some brutal honesty. Since A girl, I’ve stretched, danced, worked out, played sports, and practiced martial arts. I’ve always been sassy,witty, outspoken and comfortable in my own skin, but I’m not gonna lie, I’ve thrown up many meals along the way. I’ve never felt guilty about throwing up my food .In fact that scene in Zoolander made me laugh hysterically when they laughed at her bulimia confession like its no big deal, its a good way to drop a few pounds. But not so funny when you start to drop teeth! I also started drinking at 13, going to punk shows, any show, and hanging with bad crowds. I was always chubby and tired, and as tough as I was, I cried when got called fat, or a slut. I am still a crybaby,but not because of how I look! EVER! I always had a pretty face, and figure, but refused to see. I felt ugly, and suicidal, and did anything to feel accepted. My girlfriends and I lived on scales. I helped my mom raise my two brothers in the streets, both struggling with addiction and abuse issues, but that is personal. I used to drink vodka water all day every day from school to the gym. I drank a big bottle of whiskey a day too, 4os, beer whatever. I even passed out at the YMCA post workout and was dragged out by the janitor. The ugliest it got I was eating heads of lettuce 24 7 and my brother had to pick me off the stairs crying for a burrito. My mom wrapped me slim fast on Christmas and teased me about my weight forever. I ate my feelings then purged them. I was confident but let words break me. I was teased so hard for my big lips and now its my favorite feature, chipped tooth and all. I learned life on my own, and how to deal with bullies,critics, and assholes alike. I grew thick skin. I went to so many schools and lived in so many places its not even funny. I got good grades, studied, and went to class because it was safer and saner then home and the streets. I was a social butterfly because I had to be, but learned to walk alone. I was a loner and spend most of my time lost in my art. Never thinking about my looks, Never touching my body. I was never comfortable having sex until I met my boyfriend who loves every inch of me and my body. To wrap up this paragraph, it takes time and experience to know and love yourself, but it doesn’t have too! Free your mind and the rest will follow. We live in a different time and have the power to reach out for support,share love, strength, and knowledge. aliendoll

The Times They Are A Changing Life is more than fat, thin, ugly, pretty, intellectual, dumb, rich, poor… Its so much more then this superficial exterior and EGO that blinds us, and  and backtracks us from our spiritual growth. Love The Skin Your In and get used to it. It took a long time for me to get past my issues and become awake. The mind body spirit connection is beautiful and real. In fact it was 27 when I learned Chrysalis. Lets be honest Life has not been a walk in the park and I numbed myself all the time to stay alive. Then One day it clicked. I read a book, well many, but one stuck. It was Why French Women Don”t Get Fat. They don’t think about it that’s why, they enjoy life, and each meal is a ritual. Life is special, and your body is a temple. Mine was amusement park and I still cant look at a beer and not be tempted to pound it. But I looked in the mirror and said its time for a change, you are what you eat, you are not getting any younger, and you deserve a better life than this. I worked out hard, day and night. I stated to love the person staring back at me so much I couldn’t stop looking. Self exploring, being naked, playing dress up in clothes I never thought I could wear, and taking pics of myself. People thought I was being a narcissist but I couldn’t believe all the stuff I could finally wear. That and the birth of social media we all dip our feet in. Fashion blogs,and so forth got me excited and I wanted In! I began writing about my life, healthy living, and spreading positivity, and sharing my art as well as my story.The word fat lost all power over me, as did any insult. I was and am on a positivity high. Basically I choose to live this way and there is NO fucking way the likes of you are raining on my parade, got it motherfucker!!! I’m stoked and staying this way. We are all beautiful, and are one. Forget this whole me me generation and being a walking billboard. Be yourself, be happy, and be free. Open your minds, your hearts, and accept each other for who they are. Stop shaming and start loving the skin you were born in! Free The Human Body! Revolution…check out coloredflower.tumblr.com #myskinsuit and get with the program. Also Free the nipple, c’mon people its only human, and they look much better than a man’s, in my opinion. If you don’t like don’t look. Learn to worry about yourselves and leave others be. I won’t be showing mine for respect for my boyfriend but I love them all the same. d3

chrysalis We come in all different shapes, sizes, and colors, but often forget we are also all different ages. I believe Age is irrelevant. We all have our own pace, and become awake when we are ready.A 36 year old woman who has had a lifetime of practice, and tips is going to be wiser and sharper at life than a 15 year old with a new phone! Seriously I get better every year. Advanced Style is a huge inspo of mine! But the older bombshell no longer has the youth or fearless attitude of the teen. Give and Take. You cant be angry when a nasty comment gets dropped on your page by a child, think about how you acted and all the stupid things you regretted saying  growing up. We all make mistakes, learn, and then move on. Social Media is an uneven playing field and should by no means be a competition. We are all our own person, beautiful unique creatures who have a purpose in this world. You will find it when you stop worrying about the exterior and working on the interior. So lets unite and spread the word of self love, and seeing past our physical being. We are here to learn, grow, help each other, and make connections, not to compare ourselves to others. Lets all stop talking about ourselves and using labels, lets exist and destroy our insecurities. We are all bags of bones that deserve to be treated equally, and with respect. Get naked and be one with nature. Don’t be ashamed of your body ever, be proud of who you are, and have fun with it. xoxo

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Inked Barbie Diary

lipsonly I am obsessed with glitter, and wearing it on my lips! So I was super excited to get a package full of makeup in the mail from Candy Rock Couture, introducing their new Line! Inked Barbie Cosmetics! Vegan and cruelty free! Coming Soon! I spent three days getting dolled up and trying out new looks with it all, and I am in love. So here is what I came up with. me Pretty tied up in the GlamDoll Glitter in Bi-Polar Barbie. I love the name as much as the product, and it is super glittery, and fine. I am wearing it over matte purple lipstick, Pansy by Lime Crime to be exact. As always I love colorplay, so first I went right into shades of purple and pink.  The Pearly White Cream eyeshadow in Holy Ghost is awesome. I use it as a highlighter under my brows, above my lip, inside corners of my eyes, cheeks, or wherever else I feel like making shimmer.DSC03405 The Lavender Snow, Dollust Dust, is so pastel and pretty. Perfect eye shadow for a soft nymph look, or ethereal snow princess. I always add a few drops of water or eye drops over the shadow and blend in circles gently with my fingertip for more shine and a long lasting hold. Then dust more on top. Here is my look!lips2 lips I applied powder, a cosplay wig sharp cat eyes, and tiny lavender hearts with lash glue. Then put on the most perfect doll lashes! Dreamdoll Lashes in Barbi-licious. I love them so much, and you get two pairs.  fdDSC03442DSC03441  So here are some of the fabulous materials I used to get my looks. m I am so grateful to receive and play with all this rad makeup. The packaging, and shimmery shades brought me back some happy memories. I have always been passionate about makeup, and really good at it. But, I couldn’t afford it as a kid and went crazy at all my rich girlfriends houses! They always had the best vanities. I was honored to be able to touch the makeup boxes and try on all the glittery stuff, lol. I would head to the mall with friends and go straight to the makeup counters right for Stilla, Mac, Nars,Tony and Tina (for glitter) Urban Decay,Hard Candy and more. I would try it all on, dream, learn, and cry it all off, cause I was a broke kid. But thank god for Drag queens,they taught me everything I needed to know and got me hooked on Ruby Woo Red Matte Lips. 4 Look, Even the Eyeshadow is  smiling! This is by far my favorite. Dollust Dust In Birthday Cake. The product lives up to the name, and shimmers so vibrantly. 3 I love clip in hair pieces as well! I cried when I saw this pastel rainbow one in my package. You can get this mixed color one now at http://www.etsy.com/shop/suicidebarbiebowtiq   The Inked Up Barbie Packaging is so fun too! DSC03462DSC03458 This is the Glamdoll Glitter in Teal Iced Dreams applied over reen Lip Gloss.DSC03479 I wanted a dramatic eye so I used face paint for my brows, Holy Ghost Cream shadow for highlights and to lighten up my brow. I also used pink facepaint for the hearts on my cheek and used the Birthday Cake Dollust Dust over it, and my lids. I used some of the Glamdoll Glitter in Bi-Polar Barbie too. DSC03476 I don’t care what people say I love makeup! We don’t wear it because we are insecure or don’t like how we look without it, in fact we look better! We wear it as an extension to our looks, outfits, and for artistic self expression. Of course to enhance our natural beauty, and cover our flaws, but not for idiots. DSC03388 Look out for  Inked Barbie Cosmetics, this fabulous cruelty line of products is coming soon. In the mean time check out http://www.candyrockcouture.com/

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Cherry Rainbow Reality Filters

cherry  I made these fabulous things today! Made pink fluffs for my baby pink vintage kitten peep toes. I had these cute rose vintage shades and was waiting for the right moment to decorate them. I glued the cherry earrings to them into a sassy sparkly cat eye pair. I then added tiny glass rainbow and pink crystals. Summer and spring will be better in these cuties!y

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Iced Tea Crazy

kawaii6 I live for Iced tea. I drink so much tea I stared making pitchers of it to keep in the fridge for endless refills. I love to mix in fresh organic lemon slices, ginger,fresh fruit,and herbs. I don’t sweeten my tea, only honey or agave if I do. Lately I have been into green ginger tea with lemon, ginger, and pear slices! You can mix in whatever you like and let it meddle. I cant stress enough how good tea is for you, especially the greens! Plus it helps you get your daily water intake,and has so many healing benefits. Lemon juice every day too! I even do cayenne lemon ginger shots as much as possible. My skin and body can never get enough fruit! Pears are wonderful! Try this or your own blend, and lay off processed unnatural drinks like sodas, and sugary shit like fake juices, waters, Gatorade….and so on. Water,tea,and organic fresh squeezed juices come from the earth, and your body reacts better, because it can identify what the fuck it is taking in. Be health, but always in moderation, cheating keeps the cravings away, wish it worked that way with booze. So make up pitchers of Iced tea, and black coffee,  you will be less tempted to drink the bad stuff.

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Faerie Vibrations

n I believe in fairies, and manifesting my dreams, so when I saw the little pink haired Fae, Audrey Kitching, makes just the product I need, I had to have. It came with a little pink wax seal and lots of magic. I am obsessed with this product and using it on all sorts of pretty colored candles, and adding more glitter, stars, and moons. I love making a ritual out of it and sending what I desire into the universe.  I love everything on her shop check it out! http://www.crystalcactus.com/ gggdd I lam making these tiny fimo faeries for tea, drinks, or decoration! I love tea, all tea! Tea bombs coming soon,and top secret stuff you will see in spring! Very excited to launch my company Fae-ded Daisy, and share all the fairy kissed love with you all. g lffaek

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Mad Magical Style

fae2 Excuse me for the lack of posts lately. I have been swamped with work, meetings, collaborations, networking, branding my company, and doing a little artistic soul searching. Mercury in Retrograde always sets my Virgo self back as well. After years upon years I will finally be launching my dream collection this summer, and my Brand. Fae-ded Daisy I’m back,and inspired once more to write, and share my life with you all. I am really excited to create more, make art,and take it all to the next level. Here are some of the cute and magical things Iv’e been making for my shop.fae Tiny Tea Fairies, manifestation candles, kawaii pins, clip in unicorn horns, and fairy dress up kits! All made with love, magic, high vibrations, and loud music!faeeeeefaaaa  Do you believe in fairies?faaaaSometimes you just need a little vodka and glitter to get through the work.crafts Idle hands are the devils playground. http://macymarie.storenvy.com/love6love1 Coming up with new fluffs everyday, because I am a manic artist, and always trying new and different things. I just love how they glam up any look, and are so fun, girly, and playful. love3jpg Evil eye fluffs to protect yourself from the envious!min These are my sparkle snow cone fluffs, served up in style. I take pride in my packaging, probably as much fun as creating the item itself.snowconfcrafts2 The Persian cat fluffs are puuuuurfect. I am going to start making other color cats soon. Hand painted and sewn with love.puuur pastelsssqueenfrostbfffffbroochServing up cute every day at http://macymarie.storenvy.com/ sspuffpuff I love powder puffs! The ultimate symbol of femininity, glamour, Vanity icons! When I was 16 I got the KITTEN one from Benefit Cosmetics that made me forever shimmer. I love Dita Von Teese and her Powder puff compact dance as well. So I make them in pin, hair clip, and ring form…http://macymarie.storenvy.com/ nowpinkbandana Gutter pop bananas are hand dyed, bleached, and decorated to puuurfection. Inspired by mu little brother, he is in the gutter forever and I love him for it. Gutter punk to a kept baby doll. Never lose the child inside, fuck the conforms of society and their oppressed values on the norm. Some of us had lost childhoods, and the need to fulfill the void.bby2cbling2peachfae My second Ouija Planchette! Pink Magic, it sold very fast. I cant wait to come across some more and make new ones.I love decorating these.gl pinkfaeryEvery purchase from my shop comes with goodies, and wrapped up like a dream. I throw in so many special extras, random art, quotes, and more. I want purchasing from my shop a magical playful experience. Depending on what you buy, and how often,decides how much spoiling is gonna go down, I love you all and thank you for the love and support! It means the world to me, and I need every penny, believe me. As you can tell I am all about the art and integrity of my name over a cheap buck any day, but I am a starving artist and need the cash every now and then,you know!  Look forward to many more posts,healthy recipes, and tips on fighting bullshit on the daily.

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Jellyfish Kisses

jf2 I shall call him squishy, and he shall be mine. jf My newest creation, Jellyfish earrings! I made them with sparkly fimo, deconstructed pastel yarn, crystals,pearls, prisms, ribbon roses, and tiny flowers. I love how they came out and have them up for sale at my shop macymarie.storenvy.com. Limited edition,jfmayb2 I wanted them to look ethereal, magical, and flowy like the jellyfish. The powder puff clips are also for sale at my lil online shop.

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